Friday, August 29, 2008

Happy Birthday mom... I still miss you...


If she were still alive today, she would have been 49 years old.

Mom,

I know there won't be any birthday parties up in heaven, but if you can hear me...

Mom, Blessed birthday mom, I just want you to know that I love you a lot and I still miss you...
It's only been this long, but I really wish you were still here with us celebrating your 49th birthday and 50th Birthday....

Why did you have to go...

=(

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Tuesday, August 12, 2008

A picture left with memories for the heart


It's been exactly 3 months since mom departed from us. It was really difficult for me to let go of her after spending 22 years of my life with her, from the day she conceived me till the day she went home to be with the Lord. I will never forget the times I spent with her in the hospital, sacrificing my sleep and holidays just to take care of her. I think about the times she sacrificed her busy schedule just to pick me up from school, dropping me off to tuition, picking me up from tuition.

I will never forget being involve with her in worship. I'll be either on the drums, guitar or bass, and she will be the back up singer, I really miss her melodious voice...

One of her favorite Christian song was....

Jesus, be the center Be my source, be my light Jesus Jesus, be the center Be my hope, be my song Jesus Be the fire in my heart Be the wind in these sails Be the reason that I live Jesus, Jesus Jesus, be my vision Be my path, be my guide Jesus

She has fulfilled her duty as a mother to my siblings and I. I know that because of who I am today and what I have become. She would not hesitate to point out my flaws and correct me, one of them being my temper. She has always been telling me about my temper, always teaching me to be patient. Mom, I want you to know that I do not let my anger get the best of me so easily.
What else I can about my mom? She taught me that we ought to bless other people, don't ask anything in return and God will surely bless us back.


Our last Chinese New Year together as a family.... Our last reunion dinner as a family....
We always have steamboat for reunion dinner. Mom would always get the best crabs there is from her friend. FRESH and ALIVE!! This year I took the liberty to murder the crabs since mom had no strength anymore to chop the crabs.



This was the last time she spent her birthday with me. I guess that was 29th August 2006. This year we'll have one less birthday to celebrate. It aches my heart so bad that I am unable to celebrate her 49th birthday...


This will be the first time that :
  • I will be spending Christmas without her
  • I will be ushering the New Year without her
  • I will be graduating from Murdoch without her
  • I will be celebrating Chinese New Year without her
  • I will be celebrating my birthday without her
It will be the first time for so many things for me....



Gosh, I really really miss her alot....Will I ever learn to let go and move on?

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Friday, August 08, 2008

The times we spent here was the time well spent...

The past 1 and a half year has been really tough for the both of us, but I would say we are both very fortunate during the past 1 year and a half...
I know this entry came rather late than expected, but I know you'll still appreciate it right?

7 years of relationship;on and off, it really has been a long journey for both of us. Imagine from the first day I told Elya how pretty you are till today with me "forcing" you to cut your long hair...

*laughs out loud*

Well, I'd say we've been through alot of things together, bad and good things. Some not worth remembering. I hope we would go on till the end....


Last year, we both got a chance to visit Tokyo Japan for holiday. I can still remember the time we walk back from Aeon to my aunt's apartment and it was still raining. That was like the bomb.

Although we spent only a week there, but I'd say that week was a dream come true. I remember the time we spent at Tokyo Disneyland...


the On-sen...



walking around Venus Fort...


I won't forget that.


Who would forget the time you came to Perth to visit me. I was really excited that you were coming that I cleaned my room, changed the position of my tables and bed. But in the end my room still is untidy. But I was still glad you were here to help clean my room. I very grateful for that. Now it's messier than ever, please come clean for me.

How about the time we went Kings Park? Remember you were very unfortunate to have your camera run out of battery, luckily my phone camera takes good photos, if not you KOed...HAHA


The picture above is my favourite photo, it's my wallpaper. I love that smile... =)


How about this? Your battery ran out of juice... HAHAThe DNA Tower? remember? we compete to climb up there...


Swan Bell Tower? The sound of the melodious bells. Imagine our wedding there, WOW that would be like fairy tale dream come true.



Remember we went Caversham Wildlife Park? Enjoyed it? I know I did dear...Wherever I go, as long it's with you, I'm happy.






You promoting Lancaster Wine behind the vineyard..


Our Fish and Chips session at Freo...




I hope we will have more memories like the ones above to be kept with us forever. I thank you for being able to be patient with me, to be able to tolerate my awful manners...

I love you...

Always...

and...

Forever...

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Monday, August 04, 2008

Week 1 has commence...

Oh boy, it's the start of the semester....

Orientation week was awesome, met lots of great people and was personally happy to be able to be a part of the orientation community. It does brings joy to usher in the new students into a new community in a new environment with a whole new bunch of people with a brand new culture.

I would say that this is the first time during my time here in Perth that I wake up at 7am in a week, that's like a personal record. You know, I love to sleep... eat....maybe sleep again... but yeah, it was all good.

We also had a number of activities planned for the freshies. We're glad that we as a zone are able to help the freshies feel welcome in Perth. I know how it feels to be away from home for a long period of time. We all went through that phase, so we try our best to not make them feel lonely, that they have friends here.

Well, on another note, I know I'm not suppose to bring this up but can't help it...

It's been nearly 2 months since she's gone, but I still miss her alot. Sometimes I wish I could turn back the time, just to be with her one last time. Even now I can't help thinking what she's doing right now.

Mom, I miss you alot... can you hear me mom?

I love you....



P/S: Class commence tomorrow 12:30pm...assessments out on MyMurdoch and what sucks most is.... I HAVE ESSAYS TO WRITE!!! GRARRRR!!


God save me.....