Wednesday, August 31, 2005

I can only stand in a corner

So much I want to say
So much I want to tell
So much I want to do
But I just can't

How can I be sure?
How can I be certain?
How can I be assured?
I just can't...




Here's another birthday we are all celebrating...
Merdeka's Day

Happy birthday Malaysia!
you're another year older...
may you continue to prosper and be filled with harmoney and peace !

Monday, August 29, 2005

I want to leave on a jetplane , I hope I won't be back again



He can only dream

As he looks upon her eyes
As he gaze upon her smiles
As he marvel upon her beauty
He can only dream

As he thinks about her
As he silently loves her
As he hides his feelings for her
He can only dream

In his heart he sings for her
In his heart he feels for her
In his heart he cries aloud
He can only dream

Each night he dreams about her
Each night he thinks about her
Each night he cry in pain
He can only dream

Everyday He hopes for a touch from her
A simple hand shake from her
A smile from her
He can only dream

this picture wasn't drawn by me



I want to pack my bags, I'm all ready to go
I look back upon those I have come to known
I just couldn't bare to let them go
But the pain I am experiencing is withing the friendship
I have no other choice but to hope
that the plane is ready for me
ready for me to sit on
for me to go to a whole new place
a place where I can start all things new
where I can hope that I will never see that pain again

I want to leave everything, I want to go far away
I want to go where no one will be able to find me
I want to leave on a jetplane, I hope I won't be back again

Everyday is just another painful moment for me
I wish I could let it go
I wish I could stop the pain
sigh..
I could only wish.....


As I put on the mask
Hiding my face from society
hiding my true identity
I can only cry in pain

It's a burden I face
It's a pain I must keep
It's a curse I have in me
I can only cry in pain

will it ever end....




I would like to wish one special person a very blessed birthday...
The person would be....

*drum rolls*

My beloved mother..


May the Good Lord bless you in the future
and I pray that He'll continue to keep you healthy
I love mom and I'll always will...

Happy Blessed Birthday to You mom..

Sunday, August 28, 2005

Inspiring poets everywhere

I was blog surfing..again.. and I came across this rather interesting poem or whatever you people call it...

I might be
Going off to a place you cannot follow
Where my heart has wings
And goes wherever She wants to go.

I don’t want
To leave your heart in this cold, lonely world
For our hearts have been great friends
But I’m sure you’ll find another perfect girl.

I look into
The window of the future
“Where are we?” I ask.
I don’t see the two of us hand in hand,
I don’t see how one day you’ll be my man.

This is ridiculous.
So why are we still together?





Anyway, should the owner of this poem wishes me to acknowledge or remove this entry... please let me know .. and I'll gladly do that...
but i found it interesting so I want to share it with everyone...


I sing for you and only you
Wherever I go I find you
You’re in the sound of every hello
In everything I do
You’re the song I was destined to know
And I only sing for you

should I try composing one??
hahaa..
I remember I used to composed one..
the inspiration..
lost
all lost...

It was never meant to be

She can never imagine
The pain he has within
The thought of looking at her
knowing that He can never be a part of her
It was never meant to be

The joy of holding her hands
The happiness when she's around
Each day he stares at her
Each day he dreams of her
It was never meant to be.

If only she would know
If only she would understand
If only she would care
If only she would give a chance
It was never meant to be

He wanders in his own world
Living on sorrow
Living on anger
Living on sadness
It was never meant to be

He looks upon her
wishing he could hold her
wishing he could embrace her
wishing he could love her
it was never meant to be

He looks upon his future
Where only sorrow and anger lingers
He ponders upon his past
wondering will his guilt ever last
it was never meant to be


How wonderful when people can write poems.... there are soo many inspiring poets there...
I wish I could write again..

sigh...
guess as the poem done above..

It was never meant to be.....

Saturday, August 27, 2005

I've got a Fan..not a fan..a FAN...

There he goes this fellow Caine
Sweet,caring and ocasionally lammee
Guys and girls alike run after him
Like a great big candy machine
Nice having you as a friend
I'll see you right till the very end.



You are not going to believe it when I tell you who's the person who wrote this poem for me.
I can say the person's a guy... A guy writing me a poem??? ARGH... I must be turning gay!! I ain't gay!! I ain't gay!!! (no pun intended)

Anyways, it's nice to know that there's always a hardcore loyal fan friend who remembers me.
hehehe...

Well, Just to let u know...

I am not handsome
I am not caring
I am not cute

I pretty much don't give a rat ass about anything anymore.

I just want to live my miserable cursed life.

I don't really mind what you guys and gals say about me

You wanna say I'm a good person, I'm cool with it
You wanna say I'm a friendly guy, I'm cool with it
You wanna say I'm a caring person, I'm cool with it

But please don't tell lies to ppl who wishes to know me..
I am not friendly
I am not good
I am not caring..
(repeated again???)

She says I am a playboy...screw it.. SHe wanna thinks that way, go ahead..
I'm COOL with it... I know I ain't one....

I really am in need of a way to end life...my life...

Damn it, I hate backstabbers..
Damn that K( name changed to protect the privacy of the individual) for backstabbing me.
You wanna treat me as friend..TREAT ME AS A FRIEND, if not..dun go around telling people
behind my back that I bloody screw you up because of what I feel. If you think It's wrong for me to do what I think it's write..screw you, simple as that.

I hate people who acts so good in front of chicks but without the presence of the chicks.. you bloody act like u dun give shit about anything...

I hate people who looks down on people.. You wanna look down on me fine.. i can look down on you too..
I can stare at your filthy shoes all day long and spit on it if u like...

YOu said I rely too much on people..
Damn you
LOOK AT MY BLOODY RESULTS
I proved to your sorry ASS that I can score as well..
You don't like me
TELL ME STRAIGHT to my FACE
don't gossip behind me


Life's a living hell, live with it....


Thursday, August 25, 2005

I Sing for you

I sing for you and only you
Wherever I go I find you
You’re in the sound of every hello
In everything I do
You’re the song I was destined to know
And I only sing for you

You went away. I should have known
You leave so many dreams behind you
Thought I’d be fine just being alone
I didn’t have a clue
But my heart had a mind of its own
And would only sing for you

You’re in the sound of the rain
Clouds in a winter sky
In a thousand unsaid words
In a thousand crazy reasons why
You were meant to fly

So fly for me and day by day
I’ll keep hoping your heart reminds you
Nothing but love can stand in our way
But love can see us through
Maybe that’s all I wanted to say
I will always sing for you
I will always sing for you


please take note that what it's written above does not mean anything at all...maybe it does...but who cares right??


My inspiration to blog is somehow beginning to, how should I say diminish? crumble? cease to exist? Just couldn't be bothered either.

I have been spending most of my time blog surfing instead. But most of the time I'll be blog surfing dumbledog kenneth's blog, Suzanne's blog, Dewgem's blog, Lordson's blog and not to mention Audrey's blog. I must say I enjoy Audrey's bikini's picture blog. It's so pinkish and ..yeah pinkish.... As for the rest, it's so dull I feel like sleeping they also have interesting entries.

I'm in a dilemma now. What to do?? I've got to choose between Bikini Babe and Sexy Chicks Murdoch and Monash.

I really have no idea what to do for my career..
I heard beggar pays good money
I heard hackers pays even better..
hack i can't even hack...
crap....

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Play the sexy name game...lol!

If you've read my previous entry on So attitude makes 100%
then you're definitely gonna enjoy this entry...

How sexy is your name???

Gosh, I really didn't realise that name can be sexy too...

Try listing ur name in the chatbox..and see..
hahaha



check out how sexy ur name is~!!!!!
is ur name sexy

A=5
B=2
C=6
D=1
E=9
F=12
G=3
H=10
I=8
J=11
K=5
L=9
M=6
N=10
O=3
P=2
Q=12
R=9
S=24
T=8
U=11
V=12
W=10
X=3
Y=20
Z=23
under 30 points=not too sexy
from 30-40 points=pretty sexxy
over 40 points=VERY sexxxxy!!!

mine's between 30-49, so i'm pretty sexy eh??

hmm...

only got one word for this..

Laaameee!!!



If I ask would you say yes...

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

When will it be my turn to leave? When can I run away from my pain.?

Every now and then, I come across such erm...bulletin in the err.. bulletin board...

Read on..enjoy..
dun enjoy also thanks for reading till the end....




When you were 1 year old,she fed you
and bathed
you. You thanked her by crying all night
long.

When you were 2 years old, she taught
you to
walk. You thanked her by running away
when she
called.

When you were 3 years old, she made all
your
meals with love. You thanked her by
tossing your
plate on the floor.

When you were 4 years old, she gave you
some
crayons. You thanked her by coloring the
dining
room table.

When you were 5 years old, she dressed
you for
the holidays. You thanked her by
plopping into the
nearest pile of mud.

When you were 6 years old, she walked
you to
school. You thanked her by
screaming, "I'M NOT
GOING!"

When you were 7 years old, she bought
you a
baseball. You thanked her by throwing it
through
the next-door-neighbor's window.

When you were 8 years old, she handed
you an
ice cream. You thanked her by dripping it
all over
your lap.

When you were 9 years old, she paid for
piano
lessons. You thanked her by never even
bothering
to practice.

When you were 10 years old she drove
you all
day,
from soccer to gymnastic to one birthday
party
after another. You thanked her by
jumping out of
the car and never looking back.

When you were 11 years old, she took you
and
your friends to the movies. You thanked
her by
asking to sit in a different row.

When you were 12 years old, she warned
you not
to watch certain TV shows. You thanked
her by
waiting until she left the house.

When you were 13, she suggested a
haircut that
was becoming. You thanked her by telling
her she
had no taste.

When you were 14, she paid for a month
away at
summer camp. You thanked her by
forgetting to
write a single letter.

When you were 15, she came home from
work,
looking for a hug. You thanked her by
having your
bedroom door locked.

When you were 16, she taught you how to
drive
her
car. You thanked her by taking it every
chance you
could.

When you were 17, she was expecting an
important call. You thanked her by being
on the
phone all night.

When you were 18, she cried at your high
school
graduation. You thanked her by staying
out
partying until dawn.

When you were 19, she paid for your
college
tuition, drove you to campus carried your
bags.
You thanked her by saying good-bye
outside the
dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in
front of
your friends.

When you were 20, she asked whether
you were
seeing anyone. You thanked her by
saying, "It's
none of your business."

When you were 21, she suggested certain
careers
for your future. You thanked her by
saying, "I don't
want to be like you."

When you were 22, she hugged you at
your
college graduation. You thanked her by
asking
whether she could pay for a trip to Europe.

When you were 23, she gave you furniture
for your
first apartment. You thanked her by telling
your
friends it was ugly.

When you were 24, she met your fiance
and asked
about your plans for the future. You
thanked her by
glaring and growling, "Muuhh-ther,
please!"

When you were 25, she helped to pay for
your
wedding, and she cried and told you how
deeply
she loved you. You thanked her by
moving halfway
across the country.

When you were 30, she called with some
advice
on
the baby. You thanked her by telling
her, "Things
are different now."

When you were 40, she called to remind
you of a
relative's birthday. You thanked her by
saying you
were "really busy right now."

When you were 50, she fell ill and
needed you to
take care of her. You thanked her by
reading about
the burden parents become to their
children.

And then, one day, she quietly died. And
everything you never did came crashing
down like
thunder on YOUR HEART.




Sigh, I want to leave on a jet plane
go so far and never come back again
Never want to see my pain again...

Monday, August 22, 2005

Behold and see...thy new semester has arrived...

My one month break is finally over, I just can't believe that 1 month just passed me by...


A new semester ahead of me,

New challenges will I face.

New struggles to overcome,

New obstacles ahead of me.

New knowledge to be known...



When will I be able to make this song, my song...?


Leaving on a Jet Plane


All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

I'm ...

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing

Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way

Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say ...

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

And I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Tired

Sigh, I'm just tired....very tired....

Commit, fall...

Recommit, fall...

Recommit again, fall again...

I'm really tired of doing that already...

the results will still be the same...

Might as well give up on everything...


-----------------------------------------------------

Why clinging on the impossible?

Why believing the unbelivable?

Why changing the unchangeble?

Why accepting the unacceptable?

-----------------------------------------------------


"Once you cross the line of friendship, there's no turning back"


I'm beginning to love this quote....

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Prayer is Preparation

When the Day of Pentecost had fully come,
they were all with one accord in one place.

Acts 2:1

Prayer does not give you spiritual power. Prayer aligns your life with God so that He chooses to demonstrate His power through you. The purpose of prayer is not to convince God to change your circumstances but to prepare you to be involved in God's activity.

The fervent prayer of the people at Pentecost did not induce the Holy Spirit to come upon them. Prayer brought them to a place where they were ready to participate into eh mighty work God had already planned.

Jesus told His followers to remain in Jerusalem until the Spirit came upon them (Acts 1:4-5). The disciples obeyed His command, waiting for god's next directive. As they prayed, God adjusted their lives to what He intended to do next. As they prayed, a unity developed among them. For the first time the disciples used Scripture as their guide in decision making (Acts 1:15-26). The day of Pentecost arrived, and the city of Jerusalem filled with pilgrims from around the world. When God released His Holy Spirit upon the disciples, He had already filled the city with messengers who would carry the gospel to every nation. Prayer had prepared the disciples for their obedient response.

Prayer is designed to adjust you to God's will, not to adjust God to your will. If God has not responded to what you are praying, you may need to adjust your praying to align with God's agenda. Rather than focusing on what you would like to see happen, realize that God may be more concerned with what He wants to see happen in you.

Adapted from Experiencing God Day-by-Day
by Broadman & Holman Publishers

Blood in the mouth..what does it mean?

:: each time I wake up there's traces of blood ::

:: just now when I woke up from my 3 hours short nap my whole saliva was blood ::

:: what could it mean?? ::

:: tartar?? ::

:: cancer??*no way man* ::

:: or i'm just gonna fall sick ::

:: hmm... you tell me ::

Thursday, August 18, 2005

Forgiving Ourselves and Others

I got this article from an email by someone whom I'm not sure I know... But it;s quite meaningful...and not to mention a rather long entry... so hope you take your time, make youself a cup of Milo,tea,coffee and enjoy... =)



Forgiving Ourselves and Others

All of us are so imperfect and for us to always maintain contact and for our love to grow in the family or at work, we must endlessly forgive.

Mother Teresa said:

“We know that if we really want to love we must learn how to forgive. (“A Gift for God”, 42)

“Whatever our religion, we know that if we really want to love, we must learn to forgive before anything else.” (One heart full of love, 113)

“Every human being comes from God. We all know what is the love of God for us. Whatever we believe, we know that if we really want to love, we must learn to forgive. We must radiate God’s love.” (The Joy in Loving, 23 May)

“We know that if we really want to love, we must learn to forgive. Forgive and ask to be forgiven, excuse rather than accuse. Reconciliation begins first, not with others but ourselves. It starts with having a clean heart within. A clean heart is able to see God in others. We must radiate God’s love.” (The Joy in Loving, 4 March)

“We must make our homes centers of compassion and forgive endlessly.” (“A Gift for God”, 18)


We need to forgive and to be forgiven every day. Yet why don’t we forgive readily? Because before we forgive we want to hear from the other person that we were right after all. Then we want to hear apology after apology. We also want to hear excuses as to why he has said or done such a thing to us. Finally, we want to be praised for being a forgiving person. For these very reasons we are reluctant to ask for forgiveness from others for fear that such demands will be asked from us. But there is no such demand from God.

All God asks of us is that we rise up and return to Him and He forgives us as shown in the parable of the Prodigal son (Luke 15:11-32). God’s forgiveness is unconditional. It is this divine forgiveness that we are asked to practice in our daily life. It challenges us to step over our hurt and resentment and to forgive “seventy times seven” times. When we are able to forgive we will no longer be under the clutches of our demons of anger, pride and resentment. The more we feel the forgiving love of God, the more likely we will be able to forgive. We must really know that we are forgiven, for it is more likely that a forgiven person forgives.Unless we fully believe that we are forgiven by God and we have forgiven ourselves, it would be extremely difficult for us to forgive others.

As Henri J. M. Nouwen said:

“This morning I meditated on God’s eagerness to forgive me, revealed in the words of the One Hundred Third Psalm: ‘As far as the East is from the West, so far does God remove my sin.’ In the midst of all my distractions, I was touched by God’s desire to forgive me again and again. If I return to God with a repentant heart after I have sinned, God is always there to embrace me and let me start afresh. ‘The Lord is compassion and love, slow to anger and rich in mercy.’ "It is hard for me to forgive someone who has really offended me, especially when it happens more than once. I begin to doubt the sincerity of the one who asks forgiveness for a second, third, or fourth time. But God does not keep count. God just waits for our return, without resentment or desire for revenge. God wants us home. ‘The love of the Lord is everlasting.’

"Maybe the reason it seems hard for me to forgive others is that I do not fully believe that I am a forgiven person. If I could fully accept the truth that I am forgiven and do not have to live in guilt or shame, I would really be free. By not forgiving, I chain myself to a desire to get even, thereby losing my freedom. A forgiven person forgives. This is what we proclaim when we pray, ‘and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who have trespassed against us.’

This lifelong struggle lies at the heart of the Christian life.” (The Road to Daybreak, Nov 11, 1985)

Mother Teresa advises us how to go about asking for forgiveness from God:

“If we have sinned or made a mistake, let us go to Him and say, ‘I’m sorry! I repent.’ God is a forgiving Father. His mercy is greater than our sins. He will forgive us. This is humility: to have the courage to accept such humiliation and receive God’s forgiveness.” (A Life for God, 169)

“The other day, a man, a journalist, asked me a strange question He asked me, ‘Even you, do you have to go to confession?’

I said, ‘Yes, I go to confession every week.’

And he said, ‘Then God must be very demanding if you all have to go to confession.’

And I said, ‘Your own child sometimes does something wrong. What happens when your child comes to you and says, ‘Daddy, I’m sorry’? What do you do? You put both of your arms around your child and kiss him.

Why? Because that’s your way of telling him that you love him. God does the same thing. He loves you tenderly. Even when we sin or make a mistake, let’s allow that to help us grow closer to God. Let’s tell Him humbly, ‘I know I shouldn’t have done this, but even this failure I offer to You.’” (A Life for God, 168)


What, then, does it mean to forgive others?

To forgive means I choose:·

not to harden my heart·

not to harbor grudges·

not to hold resentment·

not to get even·

not to be bitter·

not to wish him harm·

not to remember the hurt·

not to plot revenge·

not to record the wrong·

not to hit back·

not to get even·

not to punish·

not to be mean·

not to be vindictive·

not to collect the debts·

not to recount the hurt·

not to speak ill·

not to gossip about him·

to cancel the debts·

to excuse the fault·

to absolve from payment ·

to pardon ·

to bestow favor unconditionally·

to love.

Incidentally, when God forgives us, He makes a very important promise to us that we must also make when we forgive others.

God says, “I will forgive their sins and will no longer remember their wrongs.” (Hebrews 8:12 TEV)

We are to follow God’s example when we forgive “For I will be merciful to their unrighteousness, and their sins and their lawless deeds I will remember no more.”(Hebrews 8:12 NKJV)

“God did not keep an account of their sins” (2 Corinthians 5:19 TEV)

"I, even I, am He who blots out your transgressions for My own sake; And I will not remember your sins.”(Isaiah 43:25 NKJV)

When God forgives He does not keep count. He does not keep a record of our sins. He chooses not to remember our sins. He lets us start afresh. Similarly, when we forgive others, we must consciously choose not to remember all the past hurt and wrongs they have done to us. But, most of us find this extremely difficult to put into practice. Why? because our human nature is such that we tend to recount the hurt every now and again and thus reinforced the hurt and the painful memory.

So, the practical way to forgive others is to deliberately choose:

1) not to dwell and brood in our mind the wrongs he has done to us as that would be recording

2) not to recount again and again his past faults to him as that would be bashing him

3) not to mention his wrongs to anyone else as that would be gossiping

In effect, to forgive actually means:·

To forgo-----revenge, resentment, being judgmental.

To forbear---to bear, to endure the pain. “Love bears all things . . .endures all things.”(1 Corinthians 13:7 NKJV)·

To forgive---asking God to help, “In the name of Jesus Christ, you are forgiven”·

To forget----not to recall to ourselves, not to remind him and not to repeat to others.


However, it is not easy to forgive, as it is so alien to our human nature. Forgiveness is not natural. So all of us need to repent and pray for the grace to forgive, as Henri Nouwen said: “We are all wounded people. Who wounds us? Often those whom we love and those who love us. When we feel rejected, abandoned, abused, manipulated or violated, it is mostly by people very close to us: our parents, our friends, our spouses, our lovers, our children, our neighbours, our teachers, our pastors. Those who love us wound us too. That’s the tragedy of our lives. This is what makes forgiveness from the heart so difficult. It is precisely our hearts that are wounded. We cry out, ‘You, who I expected to be there for me, you have abandoned me. How can I ever forgive you for that?’

Forgiveness often seems impossible, but nothing is impossible for God. The God who lives within us will give us the grace to go beyond our wounded selves and say, ‘In the Name of God you are forgiven.’ Let’s pray for that grace.” (Bread for the Journey, Jan 28)

“One of the hardest things to do in life is to let go of old hurts. We often say, or at least think, ‘What you did to me and my family, my ancestors, or my friends I cannot forget or forgive. . . One day you will have to pay for it.’ Sometimes our memories are decades, even centuries, old and asking for revenge.

Holding people’s faults against them often creates an impenetrable wall. But listen to Paul, ‘For anyone who is in Christ, there is a new creation: the old order is gone and a new being is there to see. It is all God’s work’ (2 Corinthians 5:17-18). Indeed, we cannot let go of old hurts, but God can. Paul says, ‘God was in Christ reconciling the world to Himself, not holding anyone’s faults against them’ (2 Corinthians 5:19).

It is God’s work, but we are God’s ministers, because the God who reconciled the world to God entrusted to us ‘the message of reconciliation’ (2 Corinthians 5:19). This message calls us to let go of old hurts in the Name of God. This is the message our world most needs to hear.” (“Bread for the Journey”, Dec 30)


Remember, Jesus reminds us that, “if you do not forgive others, then your Father will not forgive the wrongs you have done.” (Matthew 6:15 TEV) In the parable of the unforgiving servant, Jesus reminded us that the master turned over the unforgiving servant to the jailers to be tortured: “That is how My Father in heaven will treat every one of you unless you forgive your brother from your heart.” (Matthew 18:35 TEV) “Forgive, and you will be forgiven.” (Luke 6:37 NJB) In the Lord’s Prayer we are told to pray thus: “Forgive us the wrongs we have done, as we forgive the wrongs that others have done to us.” (Matthews 6:12 TEV) St Paul says, “You must forgive one another just as the Lord has forgiven you.”(Colossians 3:13 TEV) Jesus reminded Peter the numbers of times he has to forgive his brother, “’Lord, if my brother keeps on sinning against me, how many times do I have to forgive him? Seven times?’ ‘No, not seven times,’ answered Jesus, ‘but seventy times seven’” (Matthew 18:21-22 TEV). In another word, forgive endlessly.

One practical way of forgiving is to pray for the one who hurts us, who causes us pain, frustration or even harm. Jesus tells us to: ”pray for those who mistreat you” (Luke 6:28 TEV), “pray for those who treat you badly” (Luke 6:26 NJB), “pray for those who spitefully use you” (Luke 6:28 NKJV). “I say this to you: love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you” (Matthew 5:44 NJB). When we pray for people, we want the best for them. When we really and truly pray, continually, for the grace to forgive our family members and others, we will slowly discover that we can no longer remain angry with them. It is impossible to lift our family members and others up in the presence of God and at the same time continue to be angry with them. Jesus promises, “And if you have faith, everything you ask for in prayer you will receive.” (Matthew 21:22 NJB)

So, every day, we are all challenged and called to be like saints for one another in forgiving ourselves and others.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Letting go is hard.. allow it and it'll be easy

I know I am stabbing a sharp edge sword upon thy heart
Letting go is indeed a hard thing to do
but just allow it...

it'll soon be over...
it'll soon subside
the pain may be unbearable for now..
but let time take its course
in time..
the pain will go away
scars is forever
but let memories be within...
it may hurt
but it will soon be forgotten..


I am a jerk
I am an idiot
I am not worthy
I am not who you want me to be
I am not the one to give it to you
I am letting you down...

So if thy will to let go can be strong
i know it'll all work out..


I'm sorry and forgive me......

I never meant it to be soo painful




this was meant to be a post for today...but I really am soo confused now..

What do I really want?

God, what do You want for me?
When are You going to reveal it to me?
How will I know that You already have???
PLease God give me a SIGN
I need a SIGN
I need to know!!
I'm really hurt...


According to an individual, this statement was quoted from a series:-

"once you cross the line of friendship, there's no turning back"


That gave me a direction for me to choose...
Have I been blinded all these while?
Have I really been stupid?
Will it ever happen again?
Sigh, guess I have no choice
I guess that was what the individual meant..
So I have to let it go yah?

What I wrote at the beginning was what I felt ealier on..
now...
it somehow doesn't mean anything anymore..
but it took me awhile to write it
and deleting it would mean I wasted time to write and I just delete
so might as well post it...


Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Touching..just touching...







Need I say more?
Enjoy...

Monday, August 15, 2005

Who's the REAL Caine???

Before you proceed, I want to let you know that some of you or MOST of you will not or may not even want to be my friend after I've post this entry.... But I feel I have to post..
I feel I need to let everyone know....
So if you ever do feel that way,
I just want to say

It's been great having you as a friend...
I appreciate the friendship we have....

Here goes nothing....






Pride
Temper
no self control
does not appreciate
useless
sinful
dirty
unclean
bad

These are just some of the points which I would describe myself.
I never liked myself and whatever attitude I had come to possess.

I guess my worst is my pride. I know we all have prides... I have mine..

For the past few years, I care what people thinks about me. The more they backstab me behind my back, the more I will think of ways to get even back. If I can't I'll just hate the person.
I never realised that until recently, I just feel so convicted. I know now what I did was wrong
It's something I am never happy of.

I guess the first step into changing is to admit your mistake huh?
to be frank, I never admit my mistakes... I never want to...it's just too hard..
I never had the courage to admit to everyone what I've done...

well, now i'm writing it on my blog, not only for those who know me.. but to PUBLIC...

I now admit.. I guess you people can best describe me as cheap, useless, selfish, prideful, hot tempered idiotic fool. Well , if you think that way. I applaud you, for I know myself and yes I am what I said...

Lately I've have really been in a dilemma... I also feel so convicted. I feel like I have not walking the straight path... I've always treat worldly things as more important than what is in store for me in heaven.

I want you all to know, for the past years that you've known me, I've put on the mask to cover up my true nature.

Now I want to remove that mask.
I want everyone to know that I am not a good person.

You know when people keep telling you..

" caine, he's great guy"
"good friend"

Well, I'm not great.. i'm not good..
I am still your friend.
But I want you all to know me for who I REALLY AM
not the person who is wearing the mask..

I admit, I've never treated suzanne good enough
I admit, I did hit her before
I admit, I shouted at her before
I admit, I abused her before
I admit, I never obey God's commandment

Father God,

If it's Your will father, Let it go on or Let it go...
Please reveal to me what You want best for me..
Father, please forgive me for what I've done to her...
I pray and ask all these In Jesus Mighty Name,
Amen.

I know she is a good girl and she deserves better

Everyone thinks we're happy.. but in reality
I feel that I have been letting everyone down
letting her down
letting God down...
I've done things I am ashamed of
I've done things that could make the lousiest people saints

I want to change...

So here I am writing...
admitting...
revealing...

My true nature...


I am a sinner in need of Savior
I am a Christian whom backslide for many years
I have always been lukewarm....
I am also slowly turning cold....
but I want to be Hot!
I want to be on FIRE
I want to be FILLED with God's Fire..

No more CURSES
No more Foul Languages
No more obscenities
No more...

But More of Jesus...





Sunday, August 14, 2005

I am Crucified with Christ (part 2)

"For I am crucified with Christ and yet I live
Not I but Christ that lives within me
His Cross will never ask for more than I can give
For its not my strength but His
There's no greater sacrifice
For I am crucified with Christ and yet I live"


There's no doubt about it. I am indeed crucified with Christ and yet I live.

Why?

Not I but Christ that Lives within me



Sigh, for the past few weeks I was feeling very uneasy..

uneasy in the mind
uneasy in the heart
uneasy everywhere...

I just can't figure out...

I haven't been the person God want's me to be...
I haven't been the person that Christ hopes me to be...

The decision maybe easy- choosing between impressing your peers and carrying up the Cross.

But, to actually TAKE up the Cross, it ain't easy for me..

I gotta set things straight with the Lord again!

I want to live in the mansion that Christ had promise us...
I want to walk on the streets that is made of gold...
I want to experience the immense joy which is beyond description
I want to see the Father's face
I want to touch the Father's hands
I want to change..

I can't do it alone....



It's been years since I actually did my devotions. The last time I done my devotions was with my mom.. like when I was a primary student??? that's like ages ago man!

I really want to get things straight with Christ..

No more lying to myself
No more pleasing friends
No more pride
No more anger
No more...
No more...

I'm hungry!!
I'm spiritually hungry!!
I need food
I need God's food!!!
I need HIS WORD!!!

I can't take the pain no more
I can't take the burden no more
I can't bear the load no more

I don't want to run away anymore...
I don't want to hide anymore...
I don't want to disobey Him anymore...


Dearest Jesus,

My heart is in pain, my soul is thirsty. Father, I'm tired of everything. I can't go on living without you. Jesus, I want to be loved, I want to see You face to face. I want to hold you so tight. I want to experience that Joy which everyone else is enjoying with You. I want to be who you want me to be. Heavenly Father, I want to change but I can't change alone. I need You to change me, I am sorry for what I've done in the past, I'm sorry for disobeying You numerous times. I'm sorry for doing things that not only made You unhappy, but also angry. I'm sorry for defiling the Holiest temple, which is my body in which You live in. I'm grateful for what You've done on the Cross. I thank You for the mercy and grace You've given me.
I am lifting my burdens to You Lord Jesus. Please take control of everything that I have.
Please help me put You first. Please rid me of my addictions of whatsoever I'm in bondage with.
Please BREAK the chains which has held me captive for so long. Please Father, reignite the flame that has been constantly failing me. I thank You for loving me, I thank You for being patient with me. I thank You for building the bridge so that I can cross over to Your side.
I thank You for caring for me. I thank You for standing next to me.
I love You Jesus and I will always love You.

I pray and ask all these things in the name of my MOST beloved, MOST wonderful, MOST powerful Jesus Christ,
Amen.

"Give me Jesus, Give me Jesus
You can have all this world
But give me Jesus.."



I am Crucified with Christ

















Phillips Craig and Dean Lyrics

Saturday, August 13, 2005

A thankful heart is a happy heart

I thank God for this day
for the sun in the sky
for my mom and my dad
for my piece of apple pie
for our home on my ground
for His love that's all around
that's why I said thanks everyday

Because a thankful heart is a happy heart
I'm greaful for what I have
that's an easy way to start
for the love that He shared
cause He listens to my prayers
that's why I said thanks everyday.

Haze haze go away

Haze Haze go away
Come again another day oh please do not come again
Haze Haze go away
little children wants to play
Haze haze go away
your odour really makes me sick
Haze haze go away
my head is spinning like a washing machine
Haze haze go away
my nose is dripping like when a pipe's leaking
Haze haze go away
Hack, haze..JUST GET LOST!!

Rain rain don't go away
Come and pour your blessings on me
Rain rain piss on us
shower our filthy sky
rain rain let out your erm...water
cleanse the air we breathe up above.
.......



Finally the sky has become better than yesterday..
For the past few days, the weather was like a Nuclear test site..smelly and inbearable..
I couldn't even walk to my car without wearing a mask.

This was the Air Pollution Index (API) for yesterday 11AM onwards...


here's what it meant...



Let's hope it'll start to rain...


We really need clean fresh air....

sigh..

All the indons have to say is "we're sorry"

monkey, if you're sorry...PAY for our medical bills la....

sigh.....

*cough* *cough*

*sniff*

*faint*

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Ah Beng has spoken!

Ah Beng jokes...

Be advice, you have to be above 18 to go beyond this point....... ah what the hey, you won't bother right???? Just read on la....
















1. Ah Beng, Mohammad and Muthu were at sea
when they were hijacked by a group of pirates.

The pirates cornered the 3 men and said
"Give us all your valuables!"
The chief pirate then raised a syringe and added,
"Or else we'll inject you with the AIDS virus!"

Mohammad quickly stripped off all his valuables
and handed them to the pirates. Satisfied, they
threw him into the sea.

Muthu was equally quick to comply with the
pirates' wishes. Similarly, he removed his
valuables and surrendered them to the pirates.
Like Mohammad, he was thrown into the sea.

Finally it came to Ah Beng's turn. He stared at
the pirates and sneered.
"You all kee see lah! (go and die!)
Inject, inject lah, you'll never get my
lolex and my JPG warret!"

The pirates, showing no mercy, injected Ah Beng
with the HIV virus, and robbed him of his precious
watch and wallet. They then threw him into the sea
with the rest.

In the water, both Mohammad and Muthu
commended Ah Beng for his bravery. However,
they were pretty perplexed by why he was unafraid
of the virus.Grinning, Ah Beng answered,
"AIDS I not scared,what... I got condom!!!"

---------------------------------

2. Ah Beng went hiking and saw a cave and went
in.Inside the cave he picked up a lamp.

He laughed and said,
"Ho say leow, kio tiok kim!" ( so luckily,gold! )
and began rubbing the lamp.

And 'poot!' Out came a genie from the lamp. The
genie then granted Ah Beng 3 wishes.

Without thinking carefully, Ah Beng said
"si mi lan cheow also want."
So the genie stuck all sorts of penises all over Ah
Beng's body.

Shocked and disgusted, Ah Beng then said,
"This time si mi lan cheow also do'wan."

So the genie quickly granted Ah Beng's 2nd wish.
And with a 'poot!' all the penises disappeared
from Ah Beng's body, including his own.

Even more shocked this time, Ah Beng said,
"I want my own last time lan cheow back."

And with a final 'poot!', Ah Beng got exactly what
he wished for: the penis he had when he was a
baby.

----------------------------------------------------------------

3. A long time ago, Ah Beng found himself as a
sailor on board an ang-mor explorer's ship.

One day, in the crow's nest, he spotted an
uncharted island. He quickly scurried down, and
knocked on the captain's door.

"Eh, Captain!" he said eagerly.
"There got new island, leh! What should we call it?"

However, the Captain was at the time making love
to a woman passenger, who was in the throes of
passion.

Ah Beng heard the woman wail to the Captain,
"Put it in, dear! In, dear! In, dear!"

And thus, India got its name.

Ah Beng later found himself serving on-board
Christopher Columbus' ships.

One day, the crew spotted a new continent. Ah
Beng was below decks, when Columbus
summoned the crew on deck.

As Columbus asked,
"What shall we name this new world?",
Ah Beng scrambled up and said in
Cantonese, "Hai meh leh ka?" ("What's tis?")

And thus, America got its name.

-----------------------------------------

4. An American, A Briton and a Singaporean were
allies in a war and, unfortunately, were cornered
by the enemy. The only way to the safe zone was
by dashing through 100m of no-man's-land, where
the trio risked being gunned down by enemy
snipers.

The Briton decided to give it a try first, and
started dashing with all his might towards the
100m end mark. Upon reaching 90m, he was shot.
As he fell, he shouted,
"God save the Queen!" and fell dead.

The American decided to go next and blazed
towards the safe zone.
80m...85m...90m...95m...BANG!
He was shot as well. As he fell, he shouted,
"For Liberty!" and fell dead.

The Singaporean was next and he ran faster than
he ever did in his whole life. 80m... 85m... 90m...
95m... 96m... 97m.. 98m... 99m.... BANG!
He was shot too, and as he fell, he shouted,
" 1. Ah Beng, Mohammad and Muthu were at sea
when they were hijacked by a group of pirates.

The pirates cornered the 3 men and said
"Give us all your valuables!"
The chief pirate then raised a syringe and added,
"Or else we'll inject you with the AIDS virus!"

Mohammad quickly stripped off all his valuables
and handed them to the pirates. Satisfied, they
threw him into the sea.

Muthu was equally quick to comply with the
pirates' wishes. Similarly, he removed his
valuables and surrendered them to the pirates.
Like Mohammad, he was thrown into the sea.

Finally it came to Ah Beng's turn. He stared at
the pirates and sneered.
"You all kee see lah! (go and die!)
Inject, inject lah, you'll never get my
lolex and my JPG warret!"

The pirates, showing no mercy, injected Ah Beng
with the HIV virus, and robbed him of his precious
watch and wallet. They then threw him into the sea
with the rest.

In the water, both Mohammad and Muthu
commended Ah Beng for his bravery. However,
they were pretty perplexed by why he was unafraid
of the virus.Grinning, Ah Beng answered,
"AIDS I not scared,what... I got condom!!!"


4. An American, A Briton and a Singaporean were
allies in a war and, unfortunately, were cornered
by the enemy. The only way to the safe zone was
by dashing through 100m of no-man's-land, where
the trio risked being gunned down by enemy
snipers.

The Briton decided to give it a try first, and
started dashing with all his might towards the
100m end mark. Upon reaching 90m, he was shot.
As he fell, he shouted,
"God save the Queen!" and fell dead.

The American decided to go next and blazed
towards the safe zone.
80m...85m...90m...95m...BANG!
He was shot as well. As he fell, he shouted,
"For Liberty!" and fell dead.

The Singaporean was next and he ran faster than
he ever did in his whole life. 80m... 85m... 90m...
95m... 96m... 97m.. 98m... 99m.... BANG!
He was shot too, and as he fell, he shouted,
" [Censored] [Censored] [Censored] "

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Someting to puke on

Presenting..... *drum rolls*..................
















sisterfurongjiejie is seriously killing me. This Shaanxi Provine born old hag,aunty,grandma woman has beaten all the idiots models in the world to be the mother of all idiots mother of all models.

I came across her site few weeks back and yet again when KennySia posted an entry in reply of Furong's Claims. I couldn't go on any further but somehow I swallowed my own vomit to go on reading her piece of trash entries...

D-cup breasts??? It would be a miracle if she actually REACHES D-cup!!

Round bottom??? looks more of a flat square bottom to me.

Her weight is less than 45kg???

Quote from KennySia :"Furong Jiejie claims she's under 45kg. I think that's probably just the skin on her face."


Aunty sister Furong old hag jiejie claims : "Wherever I go, I soon become the focus of the crowd"

I have to agree with her. Why?

Bystander 1 : " oh shit... who's that hag?"

Bystander 2 : " son, you asked me what's a bitch right? that's an example of one."

Bystander 3 : " kns! wa potong kuku lor"

Bystander 4 : *vomits at first glance of furong*

get the picture people?


Then I scrolled down to each of her entries reading each of her poison....































she wants us to lick her nectar? I rather lick the flowers nectar than Hers....





















LOOK AT THE FRIGGING DIFFERENCE MAN!!!

Left: "OH SHIT!!"

right: "wayyyy better than the lefty"

Then I came across the entry she wrote to KennySia...




She gave him a "sexy picture" of her for him to hang on his bed....















I took one look... *vomit blood*

What she trying to do la??? make her already flat chest flatter???
I thought my nightmare was over... when this suddenly appeared before my virgin eyes....





















OH MY GOSH!!!!

MY EYES!!! MY VIRGIN EYES!!!!!!! OH MY SWEET INNOCENT VIRGIN EYES!!!!

I can't take much more of this...

you want know more..just check her blog..

Old McDonalds had a love story....

Old McDonald had a farm a love story, E I E I OOOOOOO...

I tell you ah, friendster users are getting more stupid dumb stupendous stupido creative each day. I just ripped this from idiot spammers who loves nothing more than to spam the Bulletin board the Bulletin Board...



MCDONALD'S LOVE STORY!! =P

A little old couple walked slowly into a McDonald's
one cold winter evening.

They looked out of place amid the young families
and young couples eating there that night.

Some of the customers looked admiringly at them.
You could tell what the admirers were thinking:

"Look, there is a couple who has been through a
lot together, probably for 60 years or more!"

The little old man walked up to the cash register,
placed his order with no hesitation and then paid
for their meal.

The couple took a table near the back wall and
started taking food off of the tray.

There was one hamburger, one order of french
fries
and one drink.

The little old man unwrapped the plain hamburger
and carefully cut it in half.

He placed one half in front of his wife.

Then he carefully counted out the french fries,
divided them in two piles and neatly placed one
pile
in front of his wife.

He took a sip of the drink, and then his wife took a
sip as the man began to eat his few bites.

Again, you could tell what people around the old
couple were saying. - "They were used to sharing
everything."

Then the crowd noticed that the little old lady still
hadn't eaten a thing.

She just sat there watching her husband eat and
occasionally sipped some of the drink.

A young man came over and begged them to let
him buy them another meal.

The lady explained that no, they were used to
sharing.

As the little old man finished eating and was
wiping
his face neatly with a napkin, the young man could
stand it no longer and asked again.

After being politely refused again, he finally asked
the little old lady, "Ma'am, why aren't you eating.
You said that you share everything.

What is it that you are waiting for?"

She answered,


"THE TEETH"

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Blast to the past....

Did you know I was a judge before??? Don't believe???



Hah! Believe now??? *look more like pastor*

I even had my own jury and "announcer"
look ma, my own set of jury!! =)
They stood up for me?? I'm impressed!! *bwahahaha*

I want to take you back to the past....

Once upon a forgotten time, where people were busy with their life and still is .... where kids were kids, and teens were teens....


oops.... too back to the past...let me forward it just a lil more...


That's better....Where was I?? Oh yeah,

Once upon a year ago, in a town called Sri Damansara, there was a group of teenagers who were in a organisation. This organisation they were in was the worlds largest organisation. It is widely recognise by the world. The group of teenagers were known as Passion Fires of PBC. They had a purpose, a dream, a vision....

One day, the leader had decided to come out with a heavenly plan to bring the citizens of Sri Damansara into the organisation.

"My fellow brothers and sisters, thy help is greatly appreciated. At this time, we will prepare a rally!! one that will bring people into our organisation!! But remember brothers and sisters! We do this is God's name!" said the leader.

Thus the preparation for the rally was on the way. Everyone worked really hard as a team to get things done. Everything was perfect, but was it??

One day, two of the brothers had a fight and the plan was temporarily disrupted. The leader had to call in reinforcements. The leader took the two brothers along with two of the co-leaders to help sort out the problem. Finally the problem was solved and the preparations was again on the way.

However, problem was entirely solved. The leader of the group was down with a terrible disease and was thus unable to be in action during the night, but the quick thinking of the group has saved the whole situation. A replacement for the leader is found and the leaders role for that night was given to another brother.

The night of the rally has arrived. The crowd arrived earlier as expected, the timing was perfect... and the rally started...

The crowd has arrived....

Music!!! (where's the pics?? sigh..no pics)



I fight you, you fight me..fight fight fight!!! OI, WHY GOT HEAD WAN???
oi! people constipating la..faster get pail fast...oh already bring..ok!


Drama!!!


We can move it, we can move it move it!!

Band performance!!!

The bestest best friend Youth rally has BEGUN!!!!

It was a night to be... It was THE night for the LORD....But....


Were the crowd ready to respond??

Were they prepared??

The group will never know.....

Only HE knows.....

The co-leader of the group then had flashbacks about the rehearsals and practices...before the great rally....

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wait a minute....what is LotR doing here??? shoo shoo



co-leader : "I wonder what's the size of my foot...hmm"
rrrrippp!! erm..oi! dun look..pants torn!! (no pun intended)


Boy1 : "stare what?"
Boy2: "stare you short only"
boy1: "what! say lin peh short!!"
boy2: "want fight ah?"


Then the sound of applause brought the co-leader back to reality...it was over..the rally has ended....

At the end of the rally, the group was exausted. They gave all they had to make the rally succesful...


Wait..... was it successful?? hmm...

That is the mystery will we'll never find out....



Hehe, I really had nothing to write.. So thought I bring up some of the old events we had last year... there are pictures..but I am kinda fed up uploading them...56k modem...can die of waiting....The story written above, is abit lame.. so bear with me yah???

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And the results are......

Today was the day... dooms day to some people... but overall excitement and eagerness.


Well, earlier on I decided to predict the results I would get. So this morning I went and collect my results. When I went there, the person in charge don't let me take wor..... so I kns la...angry kao kao...come all the way, cannot get....

Anyway, Here are predictions...


Principles of Copywriting-------------------- C+

Introduction to IT--------------------------- B+

Introduction to Film Studies -----------------C

Media Planning----------------------------- C+ or D

Media Culture & Society------------------------ C or D



THIS is the actual results....




Principles of Copywriting-------------------- B+

Introduction to IT--------------------------- B+

Introduction to Film Studies -----------------B

Media Planning----------------------------- B+

Media Culture & Society------------------------ C+


Wah... ok la...close enough la... [those in (...) is prediction...actual results in italics...]



Principles of Copywriting-------------------- (C+) B+

Introduction to IT--------------------------- (B+) B+

Introduction to Film Studies -----------------(C) B

Media Planning----------------------------- ( C+ or D ) B+

Media Culture & Society------------------------ ( C or D ) C+


Wah... not bad not bad.....really not bad..... heheheh

Friday, August 05, 2005

Results is coming out this saturday!!!

I can't believe it.. The results is finally coming out this saturday. I'm doomed, I'm dead meat I'm so delighted!!! Let me see... I took 5 subjects last semester, so I shall now use the force and predict my results before posting the REAL results...

Principles of Copywriting C+

Introduction to IT B+

Introduction to Film Studies C

Media Planning C+ or D

Media Culture & Society C or D


Well, these are my predictions. Let's see if it's "accurate" Super memalukan if I post the actual results which is totally the opposite of what I predict. Don't care la!!


Watched Stealth on Monday and I must say the movie is seriously worth watching. If you are into fighting jets, planes, action and so on... I must say this movie is for you!!
There's action throughout the whole movie, so I am sure you won't get bored. I know I did not feel bored..

The planes are simply awesome. I just wish I had one for my own..hahah...Imagine me flying that jet at Mach 3... I think I can reach UK in less than an hour.

However, the design of the jets are rather, how should I say...plain. The design of the plain isn't unique despite it's technologies and capabilities...

Do we really have such jets in reality????

Anyway, I'm freaking my butt up here...ResultS!!!cannot tahan already...scared!!!Don't care la.....results only mah! Exams only mah! fail try again loh..

"You try and you fail, you try and you fail.. but the only failure is when you stop trying"

I'm beginning to love this phrase....

Thursday, August 04, 2005

I'm having mix feelings....

Sigh, looking back at my old times and now, my friends leaving for studies. I keep imagining that I could be next. Each time I think about going overseas, be it study, migration... I will feel very very uneasy..

One part of me feels excited. I am so eager to step upon new soil, new society, new culture, a brand new life... I am able to leave the boundaries of my home , meeting new friends. This is what I am excited about. This is what I so want to experience....

However the other part of me feels sad, heavy, dull... I do not want to leave the country I grew up in, I do not want to leave the culture I have spent almost my 19 years of life living in it, I do not want to leave those I know behind, especially those I come to know soo dearly- My church mates, my love ones, the one come to cherish, family...everyone... I really can't bear to part with them.. I love you all...

I am having mix feelings thinking about it right now.... What am I to do?

What should I do?

What should the choice be?

Where should I go?

Which road I should take?


Sigh, even my church mates whom I know so long will sooner or later will have to leave us for studies. We really grew up didn't we? I can still remember when we were little or still in the lower secondary. All those good times, all those jamming sessions, everything we did together...

Now, we've all grown up. We got our own lives to live...our own stuffs to do... those who are in relationship got a date to go... Sometimes I really wish we could all go back to the time when we are very close...or were we??? anyway, yeah back when we had a jamming sessions. That was a blast.

I guess I should put past behind me... The past is the past, it'll never come back... So I should look at the future ahead.... *sniff* *sob*

To my beloved church mates,

I wish you all well in your studies and future, hope you all are able to achieve your dreams, reach goals.. I hope in future, where ever we will be.. we'll be able to keep in touch...I hope that our friendship, our brother and sister hoods will never end..... I thank you for the supports, the advices... the caring, the endurance you all had to suffer for my stupidity, bragging, complaining

I really thank you all....




btw, I am not yet leaving, nor am I going to die... so don't worry so much yah.



Well, let me see..... I have this pain at the back of my neck and it has been going on for few weeks... If I don't get the ointment fast, I am going to have a major suffering man...
Anyone? got ointment for muscle ache???

Suzanne "borrowed" her Granny's ointmet and let me try..it's quite effective. Unfortunately, I forgot the name of the ointment......

*bonk* My memory is sooooooo lousy.... habis la..exams sure cannot score wan....

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

So Attitude makes 100%???

Came across this wonderful "testimonial" from friendster...

if
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O
P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
is equal to
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12
13 14 15 16 1718 19 20 21 22
23 24 25 26

then

H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K =
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%
only


K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E=
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%
only


L+O+V+E=
12+15+22+5=54% only


L+U+C+K =
12+21+3+11 = 47% only
(don't most of us think this is most
important???)


A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E =
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%



Let me see... If memory serves me well..

B+U+L+L+S+H+I+T =

2+21+12+12+19+9+20=95%

WOW....95% imagine that....

let me try adding few more letters in Bullshit....

B+U+L+L+S+H+I+T+I+N+G=
2+21+12+12+19+9+20+9+14+7= 125%

if bullshit is 95%, then we should all start bullshiting..cause it's worth 125%


So attitude gives 100%, so what????

I bullshiting beat attitude by a mere 25% extra....hahaha!!

Monday, August 01, 2005

Malay lessons for all..

Murid : Selamat pagi, cikgu.

Cikgu : (Menengking) Mengapa selamat pagi
sahaja?
Petang dan malam awak doakan saya tak
selamat?

Murid : Selamat pagi, petang dan malam cikgu!

Cikgu : Panjang sangat! Tak pernah dibuat oleh
orang!
Kata selamat sejahtera! Senang dan penuh
bermakna.Lagipun ucapan ini meliputi
semua masa
dan keadaan.

Murid : Selamat sejahtera cikgu!

Cikgu : Sama-sama, duduk! Dengar sini baik-baik.
Hari ini
cikgu nak uji kamu semua tentang
perkataan
berlawan. Bila cikgu sebutkan
perkataannya, kamu
semua mesti menjawab dengan cepat,
lawan bagi
perkataan-perkataan itu, faham?

Murid : Faham, cikgu!

Cikgu : Saya tak mahu ada apa-apa gangguan.

Murid : (senyap)


Cikgu : Pandai!
Murid : Bodoh!

Cikgu : Tinggi!

Murid : Rendah!


Cikgu : Jauh!
Murid : Dekat!

Cikgu : Keadilan!

Murid : UMNO!


Cikgu : Salah!
Murid : Betul!

Cikgu : Bodoh!

Murid : Pandai!


Cikgu : Bukan!
Murid : Ya!

Cikgu : Oh Tuhan!

Murid : Oh Hamba!


Cikgu : Dengar ini!
Murid : Dengar itu!

Cikgu : Diam!

Murid : Bising!


Cikgu : Itu bukan pertanyaan, bodoh!
Murid : Ini ialah jawapan, pandai!

Cikgu : Mati aku!

Murid : Hidup kami!


Cikgu : Rotan baru tau!
Murid : Akar lama tak tau!

Cikgu : Malas aku ajar kamu!

Murid : Rajin kami belajar cikgu!


Cikgu : Kamu gila!
Murid : Kami siuman!

Cikgu : Cukup! Cukup!

Murid : Kurang! Kurang!


Cikgu : Sudah! Sudah!
Murid : Belum! Belum!

Cikgu : Mengapa kamu semua bodoh sangat?

Murid : Sebab saya seorang pandai!


Cikgu : Oh! Melawan!
Murid : Oh! Mengalah!

Cikgu : Kurang ajar!

Murid : Cukup ajar!


Cikgu : Habis aku!
Murid : Kekal kami!

Cikgu : O.K. Pelajaran sudah habis!

Murid : K.O. Pelajaran belum bermula!


Cikgu : Sudah, bodoh!
Murid : Belum, pandai!

Cikgu : Berdiri!

Murid : Duduk!


Cikgu : Bangang kamu ni!
Murid : Cerdik kami tu!

Cikgu : Rosak!

Murid : Baik!


Cikgu : Kamu semua ditahan tengah hari ini!
Murid : Dilepaskan tengah malam itu!

Cikgu : (Senyap dan mengambil buku-bukunya
keluar.)


Doesn't this sounds familiar to you??? You can always get such wonderful stuffs at Friendster...

and who posts them?? idiots....spamming bulletin boards....